Year: 2015

Unmasking Darkness & Fear

I’m now a fair way into my reiki mastership and boy is it an extraordinary journey, for which I am SO grateful. There’s so much I want to write about, but I’m noticing some strong themes, each of which deserve an individual post so I’m going to focus on one thing at a time. When people ask me what walking the mastership path is about/like, the best way I can explain it is that it’s a journey of illumination. As my reiki master so succinctly put it today: “one’s being is so flooded with huge amounts of universal source energy/light that there is no part of oneself that can remain hidden in the darkness.” For me, mastership has illuminated those places deep within my soul that I previously dare not look or venture, for fear of what might be lurking there. We all have darkness within us and what I’ve learnt is that often that’s where all the best magic lies and by finding that magic you can see those aspects of yourself with a different filter. Within this process …

Tree Change

What a whirlwind this past month has been. What were distant dreams of moving to the country as an extended family, having acreage to grow our food and live the permaculture way, are fast becoming reality in the shape of 10 acres in the country. So, a tree change is in our very near future and the start of a big new adventure. Right now, we are all immersed in the merry go round of open houses and private inspections as we go about selling our homes, but we’re snatching the odd moment here and there to excitedly make plans for what will collectively be our new home by Christmas this year!   It will be an adventure of firsts for all of us: living together (2 families) for the first time (we spend all our time together already anyway), growing food on a large scale for the first time, introducing farm animal companions into our furry family for the first time and taking on a full scale renovation for the first time to name but a few. No doubt some …

Do you have to get sick before you Slow Down?

Gosh what a crazy few weeks we’ve had with myself managing to accidentally stab my wrist on the broken edge of a ceramic oil bottle (needing stitches) and all of us down with gastro and flu, it’s been challenging! When I accidentally stabbed my wrist, I felt straight away that it was because I hadn’t been listening to my body. I was not present and absent-mindedly wiping down the tiles of the kitchen splash-back when I brought my wrist down on the sharp edge of the bottle. My mind was elsewhere, worrying, anxious and dreading an appointment I had the next day. I was concerning myself with the logistics of how I’d get there on time and how I didn’t really want to go. If I’m honest I should have cancelled that appointment and rearranged it in a way that felt right for me.

Riding the wave

Sometimes parenting can feel like trying to ride a wild bull….just hanging on for dear life! Recently, in particular, I’ve been feeling that life has been throwing me a few curve balls and at times I’ve felt like my head has only just been above the water. When I stop to think about it, the reason why I’ve felt like I’ve been drowning is because I’ve been fighting it rather than just allowing myself to ride the wave. What I mean by *riding the wave* is allowing myself to go along with the direction of the flow, because eventually it will take me back to shore. It reminds me of something one of my favourite uni lecturers said (paraphrasing somewhat): When we look at the ocean, we all accept that at times it will be turbulent with large waves and at other times calm and still, but always deep and mysterious and yet, we often put pressure on ourselves (as complex as we human beings are) to be calm and still all the time and lament when we fall …

You are supported always

To say I get nervous when I have to go for any sort of new health-related appointment is an understatement. So, when I finally plucked up the courage to make an appointment to see a new practitioner I was recommended, I was full of chaotic feelings of fear running amuck. As I made my way to the appointment, several interesting things happened: 1. I could feel myself getting a bit anxious as I walked up the stairs of the building to get to the  consultation rooms when my mobile phone’s virus protection suddenly flashed up on the screen with the message “shields are up”. This isn’t something that my phone has ever done before so I decided it was a message from my *team* (guides, angels, energies that look out for me or whatever you like to call them) that they have my back completely and felt a massive sense of comfort wash over me. 2. By the time I arrived at the waiting room I felt pretty relaxed and something caught my eye sitting on …