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Unmasking Darkness & Fear

I’m now a fair way into my reiki mastership and boy is it an extraordinary journey, for which I am SO grateful. There’s so much I want to write about, but I’m noticing some strong themes, each of which deserve an individual post so I’m going to focus on one thing at a time.

When people ask me what walking the mastership path is about/like, the best way I can explain it is that it’s a journey of illumination. As my reiki master so succinctly put it today:

“one’s being is so flooded with huge amounts of universal source energy/light that there is no part of oneself that can remain hidden in the darkness.”

For me, mastership has illuminated those places deep within my soul that I previously dare not look or venture, for fear of what might be lurking there. We all have darkness within us and what I’ve learnt is that often that’s where all the best magic lies and by finding that magic you can see those aspects of yourself with a different filter. Within this process lies great power because the cumulative effect of doing this, is that one can reach that place of acceptance of every aspect of oneself.

Why is this important? Why am I going on about this? Because most of the time we reject in others the things we secretly dislike in ourselves and if we can see those aspects of ourselves with compassion and acceptance and hopefully love, then there’s no more need to project outwards and hate.

I’m not saying the process is a doddle. The main stumbling block I encountered at the start of my journey was FEAR, lots and lots of it. Let’s face it, it’s pretty uncomfortable, sitting with lots of fear because it’s REALLY easy to get swallowed up in the story that the mind starts to weave around those fears.

I think for many of us there’s that intuitive knowing part of us which  knows that it’s all (excuse my language) CRAP. All the little stories running around weaving more and more strands of fear have no tangible real-ness to them at all. They’re just a protective barrier of sorts for the fragile parts of one’s ego!

As I was sitting with this, I recalled a cheesy line from a Will Smith movie of all things:

Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me danger is very real but fear is a choice. Will Smith

It may be a line from a movie but it hits the nail on the head for me. I personally don’t know anyone who doesn’t experience fear at some point and that’s ok, in fact it’s not a bad thing to acknowledge and name your fear, but then realise that you and it are not one thing.

I’ve been using a technique, taught by my reiki master, which is to remind myself that, at my essence, I am not that fear, but rather I am the part that can observe the fear without identifying too closely with it. My Reiki master calls this observer self the “luminous self”. I really like this technique because it means I can watch the fear run its course without building any story around it, making it feel very illusory, which is exactly what it is – an illusion!

Don’t get me wrong, I still struggle with fear and shifting energy is a gradual process for me and something I will continue to work on (for the rest of my life) but it feels good when, once in a while,  I’m able to peel the scary Halloween mask off of my fear and see that there’s nothing real there at all.

Big love

Anna x


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